urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:faithwayfaithwayfaithwayfaithway2008-11-17T20:49:26Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:faithway:3380I Knew This Would Fall Apart2008-11-17T20:46:44Z2008-11-17T20:49:26ZI thought he loved me. <br />I feel like such a fool. <br />My chest is cramping up. <br />9:47 in the morning at school. <br /><br />I opened up my e-mail. <br />A message from a girl, <br />Describing my boyfriend's body. <br />Why do I feel like it's the end of my world? <br /><br />I am such an idiot, <br />For thinking he actually loved me. <br />I made love to him because I loved him. <br />He just wanted to fuck and leave. <br /><br />She described their positions. <br />I pictured skin and affection. <br />I let myself down. <br />I was my own protection. <br /><br />I wonder if he was tender, <br />Very gentle and soft. <br />Or maybe she has a tongue piercing like me, <br />But actually sucks him off. <br /><br />Maybe it was my weight loss, <br />And the fact I have nothing to show. <br />Moans, sweat, and screams. <br />Jealousy, I never wanted to know. <br /><br />I was never worried, <br />Or insecure about his love. <br />He took advantage of that. <br />I think I've had enough. <br /><br />I thought he was worth it. <br />I was so blind. <br />I should've listened to everyone, <br />Love made me lose my mind. <br /><br />The saddest part about this is, <br />I still love him so. <br />And I knew that this would fall apart. <br />But I don't want to let him go.